Our two years of blogging experience in Nepal

The Month of February, 2024

The month of February, 2024 was very special to me. Not because of Valentine's week, but because on February 1st, 2024, I announced something through my Instagram account.

This post in particular was very exciting and auspicious to me. It reflected the completion of my months of back-breaking coding and a silver lining to my journey from my school at Lazimpat to Kamal Pokhara—without speaking and walking away from my mom—as I have failed in chemistry and maths. It was the first academic failure in my life till then, but it wasn’t surprising to me. What was surprising is the fact that it was only 2 subjects I failed by a margin of only 5 marks. This was the reason for my historic failure.

I had spent all of my time during exams coding this blog and watching movies, using my freshly learned knowledge of PHP from the 3 months Laravel PHP coding class. I was on the cloud nine with pride of being the “og” programmer. Now, AI gets that done within seconds.

Sometimes I reflect back to understand the distinction between tool and vision. That skill of coding that I still hold now, was rotting my head until I was hit with my selfish vision of making a portfolio and starting working through Fiverr (don’t even get me started on my version of the AMERICAN DREAM).

SPOILER ALERT: I haven’t withdrawn even a single penny from my site’s Adsense over these two years.

So, maybe your dreams like mine of making tons of money might have a shallow chance. But let me tell you something: blogging is always going to be the best decision of my life. And here’s why?

Blogging is the peace I wanted in life.

Each of us, or at least me, go through a lot of turmoil, grudges, injustices, and understating eyes in our life. Like the immense disgrace and behavior my college did towards me (after being the 2 starred failed general), that time in my life is the ROCK BOTTOM. I would have killed every ounce of remaining emotions and positivity trying to fit in and wear the crown being the cruelest of cruel.

But this blog saved me. During those times, I was deeply frustrated but managed to ask one right question, i.e.,

"The education system is wrong, teachers are teaching in the worst way, syllabus is unachievable—then why am I, as a student, getting blamed here?"

I wrote one of my earliest heartwarming articles in this blog that time:

5 Reasons Why I hate this improvident education system and educational institutes in Nepal

I still feel the warmth and hope it gave to me. It was the last shout I did that gathered all that was left in me to rebuild and prove what I am. This was no crown in my head, but there were ocean large fireballs ignited in my heart to attack every perpetrator that was harming me.

Those fireballs later changed with my experiences and I repurposed my blog from a selfish business to the toranvichara it is now. Without it, I don’t know how many cigarettes I would have smoked and how many expressions I would have buried.

Blogging Built Me

I am still amazed with all the wonderful people I get to be connected with during my years of blogging. How it fueled my queries and provided the joy of connecting, learning, and sharing the knowledge I got from experts. Not only that, my own life experiences and slow but mandatorily needed realization of the world and its insanity in existence.

It reawakened the person in me that would help, give, and shed sweats or tears when needed. Also the one that would see the world as a gift to enjoy than a game to win. Tangibly, my queries led me to connect and intimes form sustained relations with senior experienced professionals.

My exploration ranged from mental health professionals as: Dr. Prerna Jha, Punjita Pradhan, Hashana Shrestha, and many more for writings.

How To Cry Safely as a Man?

Why is Open Sex Talks Important In Nepal?

[Professionals Consulted] 5 common mental problems in Nepal

[Professionals Consulted] Nepal: 3 bad parenting practices

Love vs. Caste: The Unending Battle for Marriages

Dieticians/Nutritions as: Praniti Singh, Supriya Bhattarai, and many more for writing.

5 Common Diet Mistakes Kathmandu Residents Make (and How to Fix Them)

Also ranging up to interviewing poet Munu Adhikari (hi Munu di, if you are reading this), covering personal story Sudikshya Dongol alongside her support for covering articles on art.

Poet. Munu Adhikari: Journey of words to hearts

Sudikshya Dongol : 'Journey From My Struggles to Voice for Many'

6 wonderful art spaces in Kathmandu valley with details

Kalashala Nepal | A Space To Create | How is it operating and serving society?

And other professionals, students in my writings. Out of which, I am deeply heartwarmed by the support of Hashana ma'am to the blog’s initiatives.

These pursuits facilitated a tremendous exchange of ideas and perspective in me in such a short period of time during my youth—frankly, shaken me to my core. And it professionally not only built my portfolio of works but also made me and ultimately toranvichara what it is. These experiences acted as a sandbox of experiments and expression for me, allowing me to give spotlights to the topics I feel relevant to.

Blogging was the canon event that changed EVERYTHING. From providing me with courage to choose and fight for my wants to study, to the life I want to live. Blogging also provided me with the values and person I want to be with till my deathbed.

This fascinating journey wasn’t limited to words as during my high school break, I expressed my frustration of PRESSURE FOR FIGURING OUT LIFE. It made me initiate a wonderful video series named “Mission: life” that got toranvichara to exist out of me and my bedroom. Our journey consists of collaborating with spaces to host events and shoot videos. Along with important messages and meaning to deliver, that is still a surreal experience we hold.

Blogging Fixes a part of the world

With toranvichara, I always believe in the spirit that my works and words are going to make the world a little better than today. We live in gut-wrenching times where it’s getting clearer each day to me on how we are more frustrated each day with our failure to catch something that’s already in our palm (happiness).

toranvichara’s /memories section has particularly been home to opinions, including but not limited to me sharing writings and even series. The Internet itself has been molested and moulded differently to the vision it initially holded. A space made for utopia of knowledge is now hyper-commercialized and monopolized, but blogging here still feels like connecting to the 90s of the internet and the strong vision of decentralization it holds.

I recently discovered a very special person in our history: Che Guevara. This man’s soul revolted against the strongest of beliefs in my head, and now this revolution is accompanied by fellow comrades like Castro, Gaddafi, Sankara. This has totally refueled and added new nuances to toranvichara; from being not only a warmth and hope provider but also an objective, ubuntu influencer on power and authority.

This became one of the fuels for the creation of new space from toranvichara: resources. This subdomain stands as a provider of tools and commits 40% of its revenue for equity in global resources.

With time, blogging has become inclusive with my own changes in life from writing articles to now also being a visual storyteller through my movies. This added a new section– /cinema, which is dedicated to opinions on worldwide movies and industry and also featuring movies I have made.

Conclusion

My reasons aren't based on the ‘business’ of investing and gaining more capital; if it’s looked in so too, toranvichara has provided more than 10x return in the money it is invested with. toranvichara and I are different (toranvichara is what I try to understand and be). This experience of blogging at this stage of my 19th year on earth has fueled me with right confidence, strong voice, and my own style. As Plato said, “true love is admiration,” I finally admire me. And as Buddha said, loving oneself only enables us to love others. I can’t help but share whatever you have interpreted toranvichara’s essence to be, to you.